Today I am writing from sunny Cyprus. I am here attending the EuropeanChiropractic Unions Annual Conference. And I am alone… I am here child free and without my husband! In actual fact, I am here without really knowing anyone. It is at times a little daunting and lonely, and at others, quite liberating.
The journey alone is always fine, I have taken many planes around the world on my own, but it is arriving, and being at the destination alone that poses a few inner challenges, and brings up some insecurities. I am now, so used to having two little ones being dependent on me, that it is not often that I get to really focus on me and what I am feeling. It is also an odd feeling to only have MY belongings in my handbag, or to have the whole bed all to myself!
Last night was the first night here, and it wasn´t spent dining out and having wine at the bar. Nope sorry, it was spent eating room service on my balcony, getting the PJ´s on early and starting a new novel that I had purchased earlier in the day! And then I got to sleep alone all night in a big bed. I did wake feeling a refreshed, and a little guilty though – because I knew that back at home, my other half had not been so fortunate. Instead, he had been smothered with love from our two little girls, and ended up roasting from their heat all night.
I have three more nights here before making the journey back to the family that I love! I know that in this time I am going to experience a roller coaster of emotions. They will range from bliss and happiness for my independence, to guilt and longing for the people I love most in the world. But as my husband tells me, it is good for everyone that I get to have these days away. He and the girls are fine without me, their hair might be a little messy each day, and the washing might not get done on my schedule, but they are surrounded by the only other person that loves them as much as I do. So, I will take these next few days to feel deep within, enjoy this time of solitude and learning and do my best at being with peace of being alone!
Oh, and I will get a little training done while I am here too 😉